Nation call

The last time my hubby went for reservist I was around 6 months pregnant with Izzul. Now, Izzul is 6 months old and Ez is away again for 3 weeks. I thought the void I felt then will be less with a baby around. Not true. In fact, I feel his absence even more. Maybe because I am more used to have him around me. Or maybe because I miss watching him play or read bedtime stories to Izzul. Believe it or not, he is more expressive than I am when reading to Izzul. He has the capability to create the atmosphere and capture Izzul's attention almost immediately. No, I don't believe that it is because he is the father figure and that Izzul is scared of him. On the contrary, I believe I am the stern one.
My mom said that Izzul is feeling his father's absence. Although he is as playful as he had always been on any other day, i think he is aware that he has not seen much of his father. There's something in his facial expression.. almost like expressing a little sadness.
These days he is also rather clingy to me. He doesn't want to sleep in his crib. Rather to sleep with me on the floor. So there we are cuddled on the mattress spread out on the floor. I hope he won't catch a cold. He just recovered from one.